Surprise, Surprise... and the walls come tumbling down

 I was supposed to see some friends today for a quick coffee, but Edward surprised me by dropping by my Eastwood condo. He presented me with a single red rose, and I swear I felt my heart skip a beat. We had dinner and talked for hours and hours. I was surprised to discover that he actually has a sense of humor, and that he's got quite a romantic side.

Am I an idiot for thinking that he could stick around longer than 2 weeks? I put my walls up for a reason... I don't ever want to get hurt again. I was in a relationship with Kevin the Jerk for three years, and those are three years that I'll never get back.

If I let my walls down, I may be setting myself up for yet another huge failure, yet another heartbreaking moment where my world comes crashing down. Hardcore relationship girls would say that that's what makes love worthwhile, but I don't know...

The sex is amazing, Edward is gorgeous and rich and everything I could ever want in a man, and yet... I just don't know...